On Saturday morning, I went to Rockford, ILL with my mother, my aunt, two cousins and my grandmother to visit my great-aunt Ruth. We do this almost every years. We went to her house and we chit chat for a while. I showed them pictures from my California trip few months ago. Later on, my mother, my cousin Kerri and aunt Patti and I went to the graveyard to visit Aunt Ruth's family tombstones. It was very emotional and scary for me to be there. I only went to graveyard once but now twice. The last time was when I went to visit my baby twin sister Ashley's graveyard in California but sadly, she didn't have a tombstone (I was so mad at my parents!)

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Yesterday afternoon, I got a new haircut from my wonderful friend/hairdresser named Mary. I drove there in the afternoon for the first time since it's was my first driving there to her place. My mother gave me direction how to get there. I talked to Mary and we talked for little bit while she cut my hair. After she cut my hair, I just love it!! It was the most shortest I ever seen!! But I think I had kind of haircut like that before but not postive lol cuz I usually get haircut like SVU Olivia Benson but bit shorter... I just love it and pay Mary the cost. She also gave me little xmas present with hair spray bottle and chocolate candies. After that, I drove by to see my mother...( She was SURPRISED )

On Thursday night,  I went to Alverno College to being guest-speaker with my mother to talk about my hearing loss. It's was just a hour class or less than that. The students were pretty nice. I talked to them about phones/alarm clocks/CC on screen/ students need to be in front of the classroom and so on. The most exciting moment was the end of the class when I or should I say my mother, talked to one of the student named

( Melissa )

Last night, I was on the computer, then I heard the phone rang, I knew it was not going to be for me because I never get any phone calls from anyone, not even my family members. Then out of nowhere, my mother told me that I got a phone call. I was thinking of myself, "who would it be?" I was thinking that hopefully it would be the job company but I relized it wasn't. I found out it was my friend, Paul who I knew since I was six years old. We been through alot in schools and been going to schools together till my freshmen year in high school. He was fun crazy charming kid. We used to talked few times before I left to California ten months ago. Then I called him up while I was in California to see how he is doing.( He Moved to NY )

Since Wednesday night, I had taken care of Smokey, the little dog who is 18 yrs old. I been playing with him, giving him treats, enjoying taking him out. He is just a cutie dog!! I just love him so much! Then on Sunday, my uncle came over this morning and took him home. Sadly, I didn't get a chance to say good-bye. I was so mad especially when my mother didn't wake me up!! I was going to take Smokey outside for last  time at Seven in the morning, and out of nowhere, my mother came into my room and I screamed, then she told me that John already took him outside cuz he was whimper by my door! So

( I went back to sleep.... )

Smokey the dog, who is 18 yrs old I think, he is just a little dog, and Chris, my cousin came over to bring Smokey over to my house, and they had asked me to take care and look over Smokey for few days till Sunday. My uncle Carl and Aunt Lori are going to New York to visit their son, Mike and their other son, Mark going to Up-North for hunting. I love Smokey, he is so cute!! He usually always walk around and follow me everywhere I go. I have to take him outside possible around midnight, that is SO late!! I can't do that!! But of course, I almost never go to bed early, I always somehow go to sleep around midnight for some reason. But tomorrow morning, I have to get up very early to take Smokey outside like six in the morning. Hopefully I can set my alarm clock right since I havn't used it for months cuz my alarm clock always goofed up. I hate that!!

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Man, the weekend  was not a very good weekend. Since Thursday afternoon, I been coming up with a bad cough/running nose and a headache. That is so NOT good!! I couldn't even go anywhere especially hunting for looking for a job (either full-time or part-time job) I even went to McDonald to grab some cheeseburgers and chicken sandwich for my sister Ashley. On Saturday and Sunday, I watched few episodes of SVU and it was great and very good!! Last Sunday, I saw Charmed new episode and I love it, it was great and very cool to watch. The most shocking I saw was that I notice a blonde woman actress who played as Jenny/Piper's friend at Daycare, I relized the actress named is Christine Elise, I used to love her in Beverly Hills 90210, and Child Play II, love love that movie!! She is so beautiful woman!!

Today I went to Goodwill to apply for hiring postion. I went to in-store and apply on the computer. I hope I did well and hope I get call back for interview. I also went to Alverno College and went on the computer to check out jobs information such as MonsterJobs Dot Com. That didn't go well. it' was kind of frustation and confusing trying to set up resume and so on. Tonight is a new episode of Law & Order: SVU, I can't wait to watch it tonight and only have 30 minutes left to be on! I also talked to my ex-teacher, Mrs. Max who I knew since I was seven years old. We had talked for little bit and it's was nice to talk to her again on the phone. I also talked to my great aunt Ruth last night on the phone and I havn't talked to her or see her in over a year. My mother and I will get to see her again next month someday, we always go to her place, chit chat for a while, and then we would go to grab something to eat for lunch and enjoy it  together. I always enjoying visiting her and Millie, it was always lovely to do that. They live in Rockford, Ill. We do that almost every years. I had been watching Angelina Jolie's movies lately and of course, she is just amazing and so beautiful woman. I even caught her on True Hollywood Story. I even have it on tape with 20/20 Interview and A to Z episode.

That's pretty much what going on lately. Catch you laterz!!

Lately, everything just not so good. I was supposed to meet someone that I havn't seen for six years and the plan got cancelled. She was going to call me the next night but never did. I had been watching Law & Order: SVU latetly since it's now my all-time favorite show. I just recently watched two episodes  tonight called Doubt and Weak. I really love love Weak episode especailly relationship between Rebecca and Benson. I felt like they have some odd close relationship to each other but what can I say? I can imagine can I? Especailly when Rebecca saw Olivia at her work and talking about the case, she say "It's good to see you" ;) I thought that was something lol. Those episodes were amazing and very good!! Today I went shopping with my mother and I got new shirt and it's for xmas :) Which mean  I can't wear it till after xmas. I already even starting on my xmas list and it's only three months away!! Geez!! Most of the list I wrote down, I want mostly of dvds and cds, I am so addicted to them!! Who ain't!?

Tomorrow, my aunt Patti is coming over and spend and hang out with us since she been lonely lately . Also, last night, I heard a phone call from my cousin, Denise who is a cop. I love hanging out with her and spending time with her. She actually thought of me and called me up and ask if I could help her with the website information to create a domain for the special events. Of course, I would help her out!! She say that she would get back to me with some ideas before she leave in few days to go up-north for month a half :( I hope I see her before she leave. I havn't seen her lately for quite a while since we both went to Six Flags together last summer which was amazing and totally fun!!

Good night!

Hey last Friday afternoon, my parents went Up-North for looking at the property land where they are going to build a house for the summer. It's like a summer house or something like for us to go up-north and stay away from the house for a while like a "need a break" thingy lol. I havn't seen the land yet but I heard that there is a trail out there and I love to go out hiking. My step-sister Ashley and her bf Justin were going to camping out with their friends but at the last minute, their friends decided not to go. :( I felt bad for Ashley, she had been looking forward to this trip. Then she and Justin just going to go together to the camping trip. Then later on, I found out that they decided not to go. We had tent set up in the living room and we just played games all night, drinking and having fun together, we played games such as Sorry, Crazy Eight card game, Trouble board game, it was a blast and so hilarious. Then at midnight, I went out driving to gas station and to get cig. box. It was so funny driving all the way home, cuz I was scaring Ashley with my driving, like I was pretending that I can't drive and being goofy up lol. I drove back home safe. I stayed up till around 1:00 in the morning. That's when I went to bed.

Saturday night, it was OK. We just again, played little bit of games again like last night and then the girls went out and spend the night. I just stayed home and relax and doing choruses around the house (yes I am crazy) I just spend a lot times watching TV or being online chit chatting or making graphix :)

Sunday afternoon, I didn't really want my parents to come home yet but at the same time, I am exciting for them to come home. They had bowling that night. My mother is still ranting about the dishes situation and it's annoying me!! It's like "Get Over It!" and we will get the dishes done. We just don't have to do it right away! Then my mother won't talk to me or my step-sister Ashley. She is always like that and it's drive me nuts! That Sunday night, I saw new episode of Charmed and it was great and very very good!!

That's my weekend!! Cheers!!

Well, lot been going on lately. Well, my title say [Did something Happen?] Not really. There nothing big going on in my life expect I havn't gone back to my temp job since almost half a month ago which is really suck. I just recently call the work and say my boss is not in yet and say they will call me when they needed me. I hate it when they say something like that. I been going out driving looking for job to apply. I apply video stores such as Blockbuster, Hollywood store. I called those stores today. I also called Pick n Save food store. As usually, they would call me back. I called Blockbuster, the lady staffer say that she don't have my paperwork, which I thought it was really strange cuz I apply last week in-store computer instead of online computer. I gave the information and again, they would call me back with the info. I also called Hollywood Video store, the hiring manager wasn't in so I need to call again on Saturday. I am so stressed out with those job situations, it's really tiring me out!!

Tonight the new episode of O.C. is on tonight!! Whoo whoo!! I am very exciting to see it!! I also can't wait to see Wild n Out tonight with Lil Wayne and Omarion going to be in it!! Last night, I saw Roseanna tv show late night and then out of nowhere, I saw legend actress playing Dan's mother who got out of the hospital. The actress is Debbie Reynolds!! I couldn't believe my eyes!! I yelled at my mother and beg to change the channel. I asked her if she can figure out who it was. She was trying to think of a name but couldn't remember so I told her. She was really surprised. We both figure that she might have done some make-up to make her aged. I just starting to laugh the whole episode. I never really watch that show at all, not even the whole episode. I seen bits and bits sometimes. I just basically starting to laugh the whole way. Debbie's character was hilarious!! She was playing as crazy mother who got out of the hospital and in her head, she was planning to kill her own son!! I laugh my head off!! After that, I just basically went to bed cuz I was just tired and there was nothing to else to watch that night. I was glad that show made me smile before going to sleep.

I update recently with my LJ Icons of Charmed, Veronica Mars and O.C. Check it out at:  Lindz's Icons 

Cheers!

June 25 2005:

Today, this morning, I had to take my step-sister Lisa to work in the afternoon. She had to show me the short way cuz of the traffic out the street. Then I went to Blockbuster store to rent movie. There were so many movies that I want to rent since I havn't rent movies for like six months!! I rent a great movie called "Coach Carter" featuring Samel L. Jackson. That movie was awesome and very cool! I love it! I been waiting so long to watch that movie! I really enjoy it a lot! I also been watching my tapes of S Club series. I always record so many tapes with tv shows, tv movies. I just love doing that lol. I been doing that for couple of years. The good new is that I am going to the company that they have factory and I am going to apply the job on Monday and just have to wait and see what happen and hopefully I get the job. It's pretty far away but I really need the job very badly.

Other than that, that's what been happening lately. Plus, I heard that there will be a 4th of july party. Also, I heard that my parents are going out camping in August over the weekend and me and my step-sisters might have a party. Whoo whoo!!  We always have a party going on every single time my parents goes out of town expect one time when my grandparents had to babysitting us, and that, was last year!! So strange!!

June 26 2005:

Hey I had an another relaxing night. I spend a lot of time being online, making graphix on the computer. I also talked to two of my friends that I used to go to HS with. I havn't talked to them for quite awhile. My parents were playing golf last night. I talked to my friend, Paige. We talked for a while and might get together someday. I also talked to Ashley who is very sweet. She worked with my step-sister, Lisa who live with me. Again, we talked for a while and we might get together possible next week or so.

Today, I went food shopping with my mother to get some foods for dinner tonight. We had my favorite dinner: tacos! Then I also had to help out with the project to pick up some woods stuff that used to be a pool table  Tomorrow morning, my mother have to take me to the company place near Children's Hospital so that I can apply for a job and wish me luck to get the job! :) I am little bit nervous but I should fine hopefully! ;)

June 29 2005:

On June 29, my parents and I went to the softball game. My mother used to be on the team and played for them. She quit few years ago and now playing golf and bowling. The team were called Six Points and the team that they playing against called Milwaukee Deaf. I thought it's was going to be really cool to watch since I am deaf and I never been to the game of sports that involved deaf people.We were late to get there and the game were already starting. I starting to watch the game. Then my mother asked me if I remember or seeing anyone I knew. I don't remember or seeing anyone familar. Then during the game, I see a guy that I knew five years ago.I knew his name was Jeff and have three kids. At first I wasn't sure if it was really him since we both were far distance from each other. Then I was telling John (my step-dad) about it. Then he thought I should go up to him and ask. At first I say no cuz I am too shy to do that and actually scared what would happen. Then as I was standing, then I saw him and his two young kids walked by and was leaving the field. I thought I just take my chance and see what happen. As I walked up to them. I indroduction myself and I asked if his name is Jeff. He say "yeah". We both actually communication through sign language.Then I asked if he have another daughter named Kristen. Then I found out it's was actually Kristal, not Kristen. I havn't seen her or talk to her for five years since I left Milwaukee to move out to Greenfield.So then I met his kids, Josh and Stacy. They were very nice and very cute. Then Jeff asked me if  I would like to have her #. I say "sure". So he been telling me how she been doing lately. So then we both  say good-bye and my parents and I drove off but before that, the kids were in the truck and wave good-bye at us. I just thought they were the cutest! Then I got home and later on, I was so scared calling her on the phone and trying to figure out what going to happen and trying to figure out what to say to her especially after five years. Later on, I called her, and she picked up the phone. We both got confusing at first.Then she been telling me what she been doing lately, going to college, living in different town. She thought that maybe we could get together where we both used to live in our old town. But I couldn't go anywhere that night since my parents took the car. Then I found out that she was at work and told her that I can call some othertime.

June 30 2005:

On June 30, during the day, I took a short nap, then my step-sister, Ashley woke me up and told me that my grandmother was on the phone. So then I talked to grandma on the phone and she asked me if  I want to watch a movie with her and grandpa at their house and stay for dinner. Then I say OK. Later, in few minutes, Grandpa came and pick me up. We saw the movie called Hotel Rawana and then we both had dinner. The dinner was very lovely. The movie was scary but pretty good too. Then I stayed for little minutes after the movie was over and my grandmother took me home. I had a good time with them. Next week, I am going out to lunch with them and my grandmother wanting me to help her out with the computer situation at home.

July 2 2005:

Friday nite Bonfire wass awesome!! During the day, I was mostly spend on the computer online checking e-mails since earlier, the computer was taken down and moved it to the basement. Then my parents went out to have fun. At around 9:00PM, my step-sister Amanda's boyfriend Tom called us and say that he is coming over to borrow some woods for the Bonfire. Me and Ashley were at home. We asked if we can come to the Bonfire. Tom say "no" but then second later, he was teasing us and kidding us. Goofy guy!! Then but at first, I thought we couldn't go to the bonfire but then Ashley told me that we are going. So I got exciting and was getting ready! I actually wore Ashley's tight jean pant and it's looks really different on me! I felt uncomforable wearing it. Ashley told me that she do anything to not let me change it. So I say OK, just for one night. I more into baggy jeans lol. Then we both were waiting for Ashley's boyfriend Nick to come and pick us up and take us there. Then we both found out that his car broke down while driving. So then we wait till Lisa (my other step-sister) get ready which I think took forever! to take us to the Bonfire. Then we left the house like around 10:00 PM at night. We got to the Bonfire and just hanging around and smokin, drinkin beers, having a great time. I played with the cats inside the house for a while, grab something to eat. It's was totally a lot of fun. We all stay up till like around 1:30 in the morning! Then after that, I just head home. I was so tired! Night night!! ;)

July 4 2005:

I stayed home this morning since my parents went to the parade in Greendale. They always go there every year. I used to go with them but I don't anymore since they have gun shooting during the parade and it's always hurt my ears and it's was really loud. I used to always go far away from the area and wait till I can't hear them anymore. I just hate that. Then later, I went to my Uncle's house to see my family. I havn't seen them since I got back from California. it's been quite a while. It's felt nice seeing them again. I had some nice dinner with hotdogs and other junks lol. I spend most of the time hanging out in the deck watching the guys play the horseshoe game (whatever that game called). I went home around 9:00PM and then my parents came home little after that. I went out the front house and watched the fireworks. There were few guys on our street that have set-up fireworks and it's was amazing and not very loud. I really thought it's was going to be really loud but it's wasn't. It's was very cool to watch and even better than far away view lol. I just love it!! The guys did awesome job on it!! I stayed up till around one in the morning.

July 12, 2005

Guess what!? I got my first job at some factory place in different town. I don't even know how to spell the name where I work. It's like a stamp place. I worked from 7AM to 3:30PM. I get 3 breaks from morning, lunch and afternoon breaks. I pretty much worked on my own and do my work. I do works that pretty much doing repeating all day. It's can be boring but next time I go to work, I am going to bring my music with me cuz the noise in the background is so annoying! I been working for 8 hours and the pay is $7 or $8.  I like the job and enjoy it. I just can't wait to get my first paycheck in two weeks! I am planning to save it up and put it my bank account and save it up for a car and in later future, get my own damn laptop to put it my bedroom instead of dragging all the way to the basement to use the slow-up computer. I am very happy to finally have a job! I been working there for four days now. I don't have to work on the weekends but I heard that I might work on other days on the weekend but will have to wait and see. This time, I don't work this weekend which is nice. I do go back to work on Monday.

Last weekend, I rent two movies called D.E.B.S. featuring Jordana Brewster. And the other movie was TV show called The L Word. I rent first disc. When I saw the L Word show, it's was really good and I just fall in luv with that show! The characters were awesome!! I especially love Shane, Bette, Dana and Alice. They are wonderful!! The show even make me laugh and I love that! The D.E.B.S. movie was based on romance-comedy kind of like charles angles thing but the movie was hilarious and totally fun to watch!! Jordana Brewster played as Lucy Diamond and she was so hot and sexy in that movie!! I just luv her!! U guys should go and check it out!! I am so planning to get those movies! I also just recently rent another movie that I been waiting so long to rent: Million Dollar Baby featuring Hilary Swanks, Morgan Freeman and Clint Eastwood. The movie was just stunning and amazing! The ending was just OK. I just didn't see that coming. Again, u guys should see that movie, it's one of the best work!! Today, I saw Aiden, (my baby nephew) and he is so cute and getting so big!! Also, today I found out that we were going to graduation party for one of my mom's friend's daughter Sara. I wanting to go but I couldn't cuz I had bad cold and cough.  So I decied to stay home and rest. That's what been happening with me lately.

July 22 2005:

Three days ago, I went back to work at the factory on Monday. Then while I was working, my boss told me that I am on vacation for possible two days but other than that, they would call me and let me know when to come back to work. I was really hoping to go back to work on Thurday so that I can earn more money. I do like the job and where I am at. Then I havn't got a call yet and relized that they don't need me yet. I was kind of upset about that. Also it's felt kind of weird that I actually do want to go back to work cuz most people wouldn't want to go back to work. Plus, I just recently starting working since last week. Then last night, I found out that a lot of people have day-off for couple of days too, same as me and I also found out that I might go back working next Tuesday.

This morning, I woke up like around 8:00 in the morning. My mother told me to come to her bedroom. Then my mother just told me that she got a call from work. I just recently woke up and didn't expect to work. Then she told me that they want me to work today at that time. I didn't have time to get ready, my mother have to go to work at that time. I have no way to get to work. Plus, I also heard that it's in new area in New Berlin. It's pretty far away from where I live. My mother and I decided not to take that job. So I am going to wait till Tuesday. I also have to get a licence register for my car to put into my name. Today I get to drive my mother's new car!! It's was very nice and very cool! The car was smooth... I drove around the park to get used to driving the new car. We also stopped by to see my grandparents and show them my mother's car. They all like it a lot and they even drive it around the block. Tonight, my mother and I went and order some pizzas. My step-dad went out golfing all-day and won't be back till late tonight. Tomorrow my parents are going to the wedding. I'll be staying home and  try to make some plans hopefully.

August 1 2005:

Hey Today I am getting my first paycheck today! I just recently had another few days off again from last week. I also going to try to apply a job at the hospital that near by and worked in the area where they have computers since I am pretty expert with computers stuff. :) I even try to apply online but it's was kind of confusing and even my mother help me out with it. We both didn't find anything that fit for me. I also been making lots of graphix lately.

On Thursday, I went to my grandparent's house with my parents and see my cousin Nikki who came to town from Cali. It's was nice to see her again. I had nice dinner. We all also watched home video of Nikki's new house. I also been playing games online with my young cousin too. It's was fun! This weekend, my parents are going out of town over the weekend. I am not planning to go with them. It's was like a family outing. They usually go camping trip but since last year, they been going like hotel instead of outdoor camping. I miss going out camping trips. Also I recently bought my mother's car. Hopefully this week, I am going to the DMV to get licence plate to reg. in my name and put it on my car so that I can finally drive!

August 2 2005:

Today in the afternoon, I went to the DMV with my mother to get me license plate and title to reg. in my name. I just now bought my mom's car!!  I was so happy!! Then later on, I went out to lunch with my mother to Arby. Very nice lunch. Later on, I went put my license plate on my car and my step-sister Lisa took pictures of me doing that. I can't wait to see it when it's come out! Then I went out driving to take my mom to Packy's bar place and then I told her that I would call her when I get home. But then at the last minute, I went to K-Mart next to Blockbuster to look for coverseat. Didn't find anything that I like. I also went to blockbuster and thinking should I rent movie tonight or should I wait for this weekend since there barely nothing to watch on weekends. So I decided to forget that and wait till this weekend. Then I came home and forgot to call my mother. She was joking yelling at me asking "Where the heck were you!?" I told her where I was and she was really worry where I was. I was laughing so hard and thought that was hilarious moment!!  Then I grab something to eat. I was watching the show called MTV Austin. I wanting to watch it cuz I heard in the preview that there something wrong with Danny's family like something bad happen. Then I was shocked to hear that Danny's mother died on Valentine's Day. I just felt so sad and so emotional to see what happen on TV. I just couldn't believe it! Especially when it's heart attack problem.. I will pray for Danny and his family. I really can't wait to see what happen next week!

After that show over, I played around with the computer to check e-mails and then my step-sister Ashley want me to take her to his friend's house. It's was like ten at nite. I decided to take her to his friend house since it's only like five minutes away. It's was fine driving. Then here I am right now talking to you people.  I have another day off tomorrow. No work yet  I better get some sleep. Kind of tired rite now. Good nite!!

August 7 2005:

I really really glad my parents are out of town for a week! Last night, I went out driving, went to my grandparent's house to get her cell phone because the next day, I would be driving to where I work to make sure I knew where I am going without getting lost. Then I called my cousin Cory and my other cousin, Stephanie to see how they are doing. They are both doing well and fine. I might get together with my cousin, Stephanie someday this week. Lots of Plans hun!? ;) Last night, Lisa (my step-sister) invite her three friends and we had a nice late dinner together out on the deck. I actually really enjoy it myself. I went to bed around midnight. Lately my alarm clock been goof up as usually.

Today, I woke up little corner to 8:00AM. I got the direction how to get to work, left and it's was a long way to get there like between 15 to 25 minutes. Depend on the traffic. I got there fine and back being fine with no car accident. :) Then around the afternoon, I drove to food store to grab some foods. Then I ran into a friend of the family member, Kellie. It's was nice talking to her and seeing her. Then I got a call from my grandmother. I told her that I would stopped by and lend her cell phone  back. I got the foods shopping done and went back home to dropped off the foods. Then I drove out the driveway again, drove to my grandmother's house. We had talked for a while. Then later on, I stopped by to see Gail to see if she is home. It's was like around 2:00 in the afternoon. Then I was thinking that she might be at work. So I decided to come back again later on. At around four clock, I drove by again and the garage was open. I wasn't sure if she was home or something else. Then I rang the doorbell and out of nowhere there was young woman and I thought she was a girl next door, then I found out that it's was Gail's roomate. She looks hot and was very outgoing. I just fall in love with her.  Then she grab her arm around me and walk with me to see where Gail work. Then we both saw her drove up to her house. I was really happy to see her.  Then we all went inside the house and I really enjoying talking to them and telling her what going on in my life. I just had  a blast, having a good time. I just basically laugh for two hours hanging out. It's felt really good and was so glad to see her and get to talk to her! Then I saw her roomate talking about the rides and stuff. Then she starting to lay down... It's looks like she was hung-over lol... She was so cute laying down! Then around 7:00PM I left the house and will plan to get together with her again. I just really enjoying myself being with her. Then I just drove home and relaxing and going to bed early since I have to get up early in the morning. Ta Ta!! :)

August 15 2005:

Sorry that I havn't update in like a week. Nothing big  going on over the week. I had been working for three days a week last week. I had to like make boxes, paperworks into that boxes all day and I also had to do the line machine.Then last Thursday, I had day off till I get a call from Work who will let me know when to come back to work. I been having day offs since then. On Thursday night, I called my friend, Kathy and asked if I can drive by and stopped by. She wasn't home but her daughters was. So I got the direction from my grandmother and guess what? I got LOST!! Then I starting to remember how to get there cuz I been to her house once time and so I decided to forget the direction that my grandmother gave me and I decided to go my own way. Then while I was driving, I relized I knew where I was and finally got to the house safe. It's was around 8:00PM at nite. It's was pretty dark out there. Then I stayed and talked for few minutes. It's was nice evening. Then I decided to go and see Gail and see how she doing. While I was driving to find her apartment, I thought I went to the wrong way, so I turn around and go back past the 68th street, relized that I goof up and went on the 55mp highway, I actually thought it was a freeway and that would freak me OUT! I hate driving on the freeways nor I never drove on it expect the training but then I relized it was a highway road. Then I heard a horn beep at me next to me and it's was a huge truck... Jerk! Then I was looking for the shortcut to turn it around without getting caught from a cop which I didn't by the way. Thank you! I just want to get  out of that road and go home but then I found Gail's place and she wasn't home. Great, I went to her house for nothing. So I went home and just breath on my own, glad my parents won't know anything about this and I am home safe in one piece!

Over the weekend, I just relaxing, had to vacum the floor/rugs around the house, clean Kirk (our goldfish) On Sunday, I went to Leon, the ice cream drive in place. I went there with my step-father John to buy gift cert. for my grandparents's birthday. Then I had to take a shower and get ready. I had a little negative talk with my parents what to wear to the party to my Aunt's Sue's place. I got upset cuz they shouldn't be telling me what to wear. It's was so sunny outside. If I am hot being outside, I can take my shirt off and wear a shirt!! Beside, at night, it's going to be cold and I would be inside the house most of the time anyway. Cuz I rarely talked with my family members about my life anyway. Then I saw my cousin Jefferey went swimming. I didn't bring my swimsuit but my aunt Sue lend me borrow her since we both kind of same size lol. I thought why not, I go out for swimming before Summer over. I had fun swimming and jumping off the diving board. I don't even remember the last time I went out for swim. We all watched my grandparents's open gifts and cards. Then we all sang Happy Birthday to them. They had like ice cream chocolate cake. I love chocolate but I don't like ice cream cake. Blah! Then I went downstair to play video games for a while. I played baseball and football. Then later on, everybody starting to leave early as usually. I just knew right away that we are going to be the last one to leave the house. My mother say that we would leave around 9:00PM after her last drink. Found out that she pretend to say that and grab more dumb-A$$ drinks. Then the music was playing and she was singing. I was so annoying by their singing. I just wish they stopped doing that and I saw my mom drinking another full wine and she say that she stopped after the song done playing, the next thing I knew, the next song played and she still drinking. Then the beat was playing during the song and I just grab my aunt's hand and we both starting to dance a little being goofy. I always like having fun being with my aunt. Then I relized it's was almost ten at night. I hate going home late. I told my mother before leaving to the party, that I don't like coming home late and she say that she wouldn't do that since she have to work on Monday. I didn't have to work on Monday. Then at the party, I found out that we didn't get home till close to midnight!! I went straight to bed when I got home. It was a long way to get home. I actually wanting to spend the night but I knew they wouldn't let me spend the night. My parents drove me nuts!! Its was just crazy and so mental!!

Hello Welcome to my personal journal based on my thoughts and my personal life. Right now I am going to tell my trip when I went to California for six months.

January 11 2005:

This morning, I did't feel that good. I went on the computer to check my e-mail... Later, My father went out to play golf. The raining finally stopped. I was very happy about that. Later, I called my best friend, Amber and see how she doing. Her sister, Jen asked me if I have yahoo messager and I say "yeah" Then me and Amber talked online and had a lovely time. Then she asked me if I want to go to her apartment and spend the night with her friends. I was really unsure and nervous at the same time since I barely and almost havn't been to sleep-over since few years back...First, she went to pick up her friend, Michelle and then she came to pick me up. I was very pleased to see her.. It's been a least three years since I last saw her..

She had changed a bit... After she picked me up at my house, we went to her apartment. It's was hilarious sitting in a cool car and just laughing so hard being goofy around.. When we got to the apartment, I met her nicest friends.. They are really nice and lovely..One kid was playing the video game and he been playing all day/night the whole I was there! We all went out to eat and then we just relax and hang out, laughin and having a good time.. It's was hilarious.. We were so funny cuz we always punching each other and just staring at each other and just laugh for no reason! That's just how we are! Then me and my friends were complainted to Amber to stopped talking on the Sidekick phone and talked to us and do something fun.. We both decided to watch a movie of my choice which is "Honey" lovely movie! I got really tired that night and had to sleep on the floor in the other room! I didn't go to bed till like around one in the morning...

January 12 2005:

In the morning, I woke up at around 11:00 in the afternoon... I was really surprised at the time I woke up... Later, Me, Jared and Amber and Michelle went out for lunch and grab something to eat... Then when we got back, the same kid still playing the video game... We were supposed to go out shopping but Michelle had to leave and Amber didn't want to go shopping without her.. I was upset about that situation... I didn't understand why we can still go shopping without her...It's just strange! Then I just decided to just go home instead of spending the night again because I didn't want to do nothing and watch the stupid video game all day and all night again! It's was annoying! So then Amber's sister Jen gave me the ride to my place.. We almost got lost to my place.. Again, I am trying to get used to the area since I got here two weeks ago.. It's was nice to see Amber and Jen again.

January 20, 2005:

Make my bed, helping around the house, walked Paulie around the block.. Had talked to my mother on the phone to see how my nephew doing. He been doing well and getting better. That's the good new! My family are doing well.

January 27, 2005:

I had watched the O.C. and including recording it. I just can't missed my all-time favorite show, other than the American Idol.. It's was hilarious! I watched it usually with my step-mother Queta and it's on Tuesday and Wednesday nights. I also watched the other show called "E.R." the last episode I saw was "Missing" where Abby was kidnapped by three guys and Abby tried to save the guy's life. It's was really scary and very good!</p>

January 28, 2005:
Today, the weather was really bad. It's was raining all day. My friend, Susan had to picked me up and going to the kid's school and pick up the kids and go home. We weren't sure if we were going to get there on time since there was slow traffic and cuz of the weather... Luckly, we got there fine. We got home, I had helped Susan make a birthday cake for one of the kid. I also played with the cat named Icey.. Cute name! We had a nice and lovely talk during making the cake. Then her friend, came to pick up the kid. She was very nice and very lovely lady! I had looked through the photo album of the cakes that my friend, Susan made through the years since 1989! I even saw my birthday cake when I was five years old. That night, Susan, the kids and I went to meet her husband, Ray at the restuant for dinner. I had pizzas. It's was very good and wonderful time. It's was hilarious too especially when the boys and I were having fun throwing little napkins at each other. It's always making me laugh and lovely to seen them smiling and having a good time. The next day, (January 29, 2005) I had to get ready for a birthday party for the boys's friend named Brandon. We had to go before ten in the morning. We went to the place called "Lazarstar" it's was very cool place. I relized that me and Susan went and dropped off the kids. Then, me and Susan drove around and saw some onions fields and drove by the beaches. The waves were so pretty and amazing! I always enjoy the ocean a lot! We seen some surfers out there and we sit and watched for a while. Then we saw that look like a kite but it's was something called "wakeboard" or something like that... It's was my first time watching the guys going out the ocean and it's was fun and very cool! Then we went back to the Lazerstar and picked up the kids. Later, went to one of the boy's game, Jake who is 7 yrs old. We all went to his game. The team lost but he did a good job playing in the game. It's was fun! Later, we all went shopping like "Target", "Bestbuy" and "Circit City" then we had something to eat for late lunch. Then, Ryan who is 9 yrs old, had a game that night. We went there and I just cheered for the team the whole time since I rarely do that cuz I never cheer on teams, even on my own teams back in high school. It's was just amazing and fun game! It's was really hyper and very cool! I really enjoy myself out there. It's was my first time being at the little kids game before like that. After the game, we all went out for dinner at the pizza place. I relized that we were going to have 16 people coming. I had a lovely time with the new people. They all very nice and very lovely..

January 30, 2005:

I woke up around 7:30 AM and get ready and packed and head off to go home. I had lovely time with the kids and Susan too. Her house was so pretty and very nice..When I got home, I saw Mia and she was eating her breakfast. Then Mia had to leave to be with her mother. Later, My dad asked me if I want to go out for lunch. I say "sure" (Anything to get out of the house) We went to this mexcian place and it's was one of my favorite place. I havn't been there in a long time. It's a buffet place where u can eat anything. On Sunday night, I watched Charmed and it's was cool episode. That's pretty much my Sunday night...

February 1, 2005:

I called my friend, Paul who lived in Milwaukee, WI... I just want to called to say Happy Birthday to him and he is 20 yrs old. Then I found out that he moved and does not live there anymore. I was hurt.. I knew he want to move out of that house but didn't expect that sooner.. I just hope that he is going to be OK and stay out of trouble. That afternoon, my friend and ex-teacher Mrs. Donnah came to picked me up and we both went out for lunch called "California Pizza Kitchen" I never been to that restuant before. I had what it called "Shrimp Scampi" instead of pasta, it's was on pizza. It's looks very good and it's actually taste so good and sweet! I really like it a lot! I actually never had shrimp on pizzas before including the onions! I actually pay for the lunch instead of my friend, Donnah do that for me. She is my special and very good friend of mine and I thought it's my turn to pay lunch for her. I had a lovely time with her. In couple of weeks I might seen her again with my other ex-teacher named Mrs. Bennett. I will have to wait and see in the near future.

February 4, 2005:

This afternoon, I went out for a walk with my step-mom Queta.. It's was a long walk.. The weather was very nice and beautiful day out.. Then later, I had a "talk" with my parents about what to do with my life and my future. It's was very emotional. Later, we both decided to go out for dinner. I had a lovely time at the dinner with my parents. It's was interesting to know what I did when I was a little baby girl. It's was very nice... Then, we got home at around 7:00 PM just a hour before my show, The O.C. that start at 8:00PM. I did seen that episode and recorded it too. It's was very good and exciting! I so can't wait to see the next week episode! That night, I had talked to my friend, Denise and her sister, Terri who used to be my nurse at Long Beach Memorial Hospital cuz I was planning to visit tomorrow but decided to go on Saturday early morning. That's what I been doing so far..

*I did go to the hospital where I was born and went with my father. I went inside and went up to the office where Terri worked. We had talked for a while and decided to show me where my room was when I was born as a baby. I saw different kind of babies and they were all so beautiful. She also show me where I used to have appix out and it's felt really good being back in the hospital after 21 years being alive. I was really happy to come back and visit.

February 20, 2005:

Today is my good friend, Mrs. Bennett's birthday. I called her and left a message to wish her a happy birthday. She is such a wonderful and very lovely friend to me.I been really busy lately with starting my new website with the graphix design and been going out and getting more exciting going to Las Vegas trip 10 more days left! Here are the updates that I been doing lately:

February 5, 2005:

On Saturday nite, I called my step-sister at my mother's house cuz it's was her birthday (18 years old now!) I called her up and wish her Happy Birthday on the phone. She was happy to hear from me. She was having a good time with everyone else. I had talked to others including my mother, John, and Amanda. They all having a great time and having dinner. They were having my favorite meal: Tacos! My mother always make good tacos! I really missed them a lot!

February 13, 2005:

Sunday morning, woke up and was getting ready to go out to eat with the family. After we ate, we dropped off my dad's to his place and we all went to Church. The Church was very lovely and very nice. I actually met the Pastor after the Church. It's was my first time meeting the Pastor and he was very nice and friendly. After the Church, we went to outdoor shopping mall. I knew that I had to buy some nice clothes for my Las Vegas trip. I found a really nice casel pant from Quiksilver store and a nice long sweater sleeve shirt. It's does looks very nice on me. We had something to eat at the Food Court. Then we dropped off my step-mother's sister cuz she was going to the concert with her daughter that night. Then we went to Target and bought some things out there. Finally after a very long day shopping and going out since 10:00 in the morning, we finally got home at around 7:00PM at night. I was so tiring. I had a lovely time with them. It's was very cool!

February 14, 2005:

I didn't do anything on Valentine's Day expect I called my mother to wish her Happy Valentine's Day. My parents were going to stay home and relax by the fireplace. My step-dad wasn't feeling good. They couldn't go out that night and enjoying a lovely evening. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

February 15, 2005:

It's was very emotional night. I was very stressed what I wanting to do in the future and what kind of jobs I want to look for after the Las Vegas trip. I know I can't look for the job before my Las Vegas trip, otherwise, I wouldn't be able to go for my 21th birthday. I actually called my mother up on the phone at around 10:00 PM and it's was around midnight at their time. I felt like I don't know what to do and being depressing all the time. I really wanting to find my happiness out here. i almost never find my happiness at all. I felt like I want to "Rush into the Secret House" but just can't do it without the friends and families that I have in my heart.

February 16, 2005:

I MISSED THE OC AGAIN! My father have the day-off. I thought he had to work that night. He say it's his TV night. At first, I thought I can record and watch it tonight cuz my step-mother say I say in the living room and she was going to watch tv in her bedroom. Then at eight, she was in the kitchen the whole time eating! The show starts at eight's clock! I was so upset! I really wish I have my own damn TV!! I better make sure that I won't missed it again!!

February 19, 2005:

Movie nite! This afternoon, I went to the movie theater with Queta and Mia. At first, the show start at 5:10PM, we got to the theater at around 3:00PM. We decided to grab something to eat at the McDonald. Then we waiting in the car till around 4:30PM. At that time, we went inside and waiting. The prices of the popcorns and sodas were not cheap! The large popcorn cost $6.00! I played car video game with Mia sitting on my lap. I think she had fun.. The movie was very funny and hilarious... I had a good time!!

I went to the restuant called Calender Grill with my good friend, Barb. We were laughing and goofing off while driving to the restuant. We were meeting another friend named Peggy. While we were waiting for her, we starting talking and I starting telling her my situation at my father's place. Then Peggy came, I gave her a hug and then we basically drank and talked and just having a great time for like 2 hours before we actually order some meals. The waitress guy was very nice and very friendly. He relized I had a 21th birthday few months back recently and he asked me if I would like to try "Shot Liqid"... I was like "nah, that's alright" We had our foods and we talked again and they gave me BD (Birthday) cards and a little cutie bracelet that mean "Peace" it's was one of the kind and it's was very beautiful and very lovely. Then I decided to try the shot liquid because I never knew when I try in the future and I thought this is the time to do it! When I taste it, It's kind of taste like apple cider in some way... but pretty good. I am not going to try to get in the habit of drinking of those stuff. I was thinking of my mother and my step-father and kind of wish they were here with me and to watch me drinking the shot. I did't even want to go back home after the wonderful and amazing lunch with them. I just knew in some way that I am going to be in the bad mood when I get inside the house and it's did happen. All the time inside that house, I always felt angry, stres-out, alone and lonely. I never happy in that house at all. But at least I had my happniess with my great friends and they always make me laugh and smiling all the time. I needed that in my life.

My uncle Bill who from Florida came here to stay for ten days and spend some time with us. We went out for dinner together to Olivia Garden restuant. It's was great and lovely... Then the next time, we went to my mexican restuant where u can eat whatever you like! I had a good time! Then Bill and Father went to out to the desert to see Grandpa Jerry to spend some guys's time. I decided not to go at all. I love being home alone over the weekend. I get to sleep in the little bedroom where my father sleep and the bed have the heater on the bed and it's was so nice and so soft... and very warm... I love it! Uncle Bill is awesome and very cool guy.. He is very sweet and wonderful family member.

That's my pretty much my good times lately... Since then, I havn't been being happy or very exciting lately...I had been thinking about going back home to Wisconsin. I felt like my father treated me like he control my life and my indendpent. I can't do anything that I want to do including what to wear and how to dress especially going out to restuants, now out of nowhere, he kept telling me to get a job ever since I told him that I want to go back home. All this time I been living out here for five months now, he now just helping me out. That is not just fair at all. I just can't stand him and his dumb drinking! I can't even bare looking at him and now I really wish I didn't look alike as him now that everyone kept saying that I look alike with him... I wish I look very different than him. I used to think it's was cool but now I felt like it's not that cool anymore.

I went back to WI in June 2005. My father couldn't nor wouldn't take me to the airport. My father and his wife basically treated me like a housemaid in the house. I basically had to clean up after everything they did, including cooking foods. It's was just very bad and I felt the house was so evil and so negative. I had my good friend Peggy took me to the airport. It  was not easy leaving my favorite dog, Paulie. I so wanting to take him home with me. But I wasn't allowed and I have a bad feeling that they wouldn't take care of him. I had a blast being with Peggy going to the airport. She just make me laugh all the way. I need that in my life. It felt good to smile and laugh especially when  I was going home. Hello Wisconsin!